The day was pretty hectic today… had to complete a major part of assignment…. i sure did that , drawing and coloring after years is a difficult task…. well the best part i nailed it for now…. colouring is yet to be done but drawing 7 animals is a big big thing…… i never really did that even when i was young…………

Well while doing all this i left my chalks (plastic crayons… new breed we never used it when we were young… all we knew were oil pastels and wax) out and forgot all about that…… it only struck me when i saw my little one happily playing around with it…… I lost it… i don’t like ne one touching my stationary….. i hate to share my pencils and crayons….. nothing grand …….. just something that i don’t like for as long as i remember……. i yelled at her and took the crayons away….. i yelled at her more when i realised that the crayons were broken….. i mean its as it is difficult to keep a track of expense on these things and on top of that not keeping it in one piece is just not done………

there is something more that happened….. my angel also touched my sketch pens…. they are new too and one of them went missing ……. when i asked her where was it ? she simply told me that the monster took it away……. i again yelled and asked her with no nonsense attitude to which she said it fell off in a real dirty place…… when i asked her again she pointed it to the corner of the room where she couldn’t reach or may be she didn’t bother to reach and get the pen out….. well i took that out and then kept everything in place…….

once i calmed myself down i sat with her and asked her why was she messing with my stationary when she knows i hate neone touching it…… the rules are simple i don’t touch her stuff ( toys, books, stationary, clothes etc) with out her permission then why did she touch mine…… and in all her innocence she said mom i wanted to go sleep and u wouldn’t hear……. so i got bored and thought would draw something with the new crayons…… besides u didn’t show me when u got them……
well the conversation ended in more than one story of how monster took the sketch pen from her and threw in the corner and how she was so afraid to go and get it from there……..

now when she is asleep and looks as pretty as angel i kept thinking were those crayons or those sketch pen so important or irreplaceable that i had to yell at her ……. i mean discipline is one thing, being assertive is one thing but why yell……. what was that, that i was going thru which i got it out on her……..

she is just 3 and at that age when i am thinking now i don’t expect her to keep things in place, ask permissions, get scared to move around in her own house, have boundaries marked for her to touch and not touch things, get yelled at or shouted at for acting her age…….. funny thing is i am not the only one who does this……….

behaviour is soooooo common these days , well it was as common when we were kids too….. but then was it worth it ?

I don’t know ……. all i learnt today was she needed attention and it was her right to want that and my duty to give it to her when she wanted it…….. not when i had time….. we often give time to our kids when we have it…….. its time to look at them and understand its not our convenience its their need that needs to be catered too……

well as it is in my house we follow no hitting and no yelling approach and reasoning is the prime way of doing things, and when events like today do happen it certainly is a eye opener for days to come………

Kids do teach us a lot of things….. its just that we need to be willing to learn and unlearn the techniques of parenting that we have seen our parents use on us……… the day we learn to unlearn the wrongs and embrace the rights these toddlers are teaching us……… its gonna be grand…….

my process is on…….. what about u guys…….